Saturday, June 06, 2009
{ Saturday, June 06, 2009 }
6th June 2009.
2:32 Am.
& she suffers in silence.
No one knows , no one should ever know.
Forbidden to remember ; terrified to forget.
They say , people who make you cry aren`t needed in your life.
But does anyone ever stop and think for one moment , the ones most precious to you are mostly putting those tears on your face? In this post i`m not going to mention names or say who this people are to me.
When one sacrifices so much just to please you , to see a smile on your face why can`t you do the same for that person? You always thing that the other person is so unreasonable and you just continue doing things your way. That certain individual doesn`t want to lose you , that individual treasures you. You are so lucky to have someone to care for you , why can`t you appreciate it? Heartless ; you disgust me.
That individual goes out every morning and afternoon , she never says anything knowing you have your probation and you need to meet your friends and all she gives you so much space , but even then you never call her even after knowing that when you go back home at night you won`t be able to call her. And when the days you can call her at night , you tell her you are tired and exhausted. You leave her waiting for nothing , but she tells you with a smile , it`s alright , head on to bed when actually she`s crying and breaking inside. Even after you have slept , that individual still waits the whole night just making sure he/she doesn`t miss your call , that individual wants to be awake to hear you , to talk to you , to make you happy , to listen to your every problem. He/she knows you would never call after you have gone to bed , but yet he/she stays awake to wait. She`s not angry that you can`t call cause you are tired or exhausted , but you go out unneccisary and that`s what makes u too tired and exhausted to talk to that individual. She does not blame you for being tired and exhausted , she`s just trying to explain stuff to you which you will never ever understand.
She has never shown you she`s hurt or gotten affected by your words , she`s always put the matter aside just to continue seeing you smile , shouldn`t it be the other way round? You are so messed up , fix yourself up before one day , that individual whom you are now hurting will have enough courage to just walk away and never return. That day wouldn`t be her lost , it`ll be .... yours. Right now this is just a game for you. To you she`s just another girl , but in reality she ain`t , to her you are just another guy in her life , so watch yourself .
Hurt her ? ; she`ll hurt you twice as bad. Bitch about her ; she`ll laugh it out at your face , mess with her ; she`ll tell you , you ain`t no match for her . Her attitudes a one hell of a kind.
I feel really deeply for the person you are hurting , so leave the person alone.
Ever heard of karma? , When it comes back , it`s gonna hit you twice as hard and you will have no clue what hit you.
Okayy now to bloooog !
To those crazy arse bitches/sluts who destest me.
Ugliness doesn`t start with an ''i'' it starts with a ''u'' , so thanks for entertaining me by calling yourself ulgy , clowns. Okay , that was so random.
Finally i managed to put down all my thoughts , it felt so crap to just keep everything inside of you , now that iv`e typed it all down , i feel way much better. I hope the person will read this post , and after reading the post i hope they have realised what they have done.
School holidays aren`t really holidays for the n levels and o levels students.
so screwed. There are classes on the 3rd and 4th week , it`s a must to go , and i`m really proud of myself, i finally got maths and physics tution , and i have started revising on my maths and chem , and i`ve been progressing , i really hope to keep this up , after my n`s i`m so gonna enjoy, just have to suffer now but i`ll be fine after that. YAYY!
Tuje yaad na merii aiyee , dil royahh keh aakh baar aiyyyie.
Tu neh mereh saath ekk khed khedi hai . Tum terpaoohhgeh , tum peshtaungehh .
tujeh dhun rehi taah mein ; dil roya hei rahi , tu aja meri maahi.
tu hi hai meri dil keh temenah ; teri hi yaadein har lamhaa.
